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  Issue #1  -     Awakening into Awareness    -  October, 1998
                  A free ezine dedicated to
             exploring the nature of Reality and
               the experience of Realization


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   *  Introduction

   *  "So Who Are You?" by Ken Wilber, an essay/excerpt
      from his upcoming book: _One Taste_.  

   *  Wisdom and Insights
          -  Richard Moss in his book:
                  _The Black Butterfly_
          -  A. H. Almaas in his book:
                  _The Elixir of Enlightenment_
          -  Ngakpa Chogyam in his book:
                  _Rainbow of Liberated Energy_
          -  Garab Dorje on Self-liberation in
                  _Dzogchen: The Self-Perfected State_
                   by Namkhai Norbu
          -  Brian Swimme on "allurement" in his book:
                  _The Universe is a Green Dragon_

   *  Letters
          -  Spiritual Evolution
          -  Doing Nothing
          -  Fascination with the "Fireworks" 
          -  "Those who know do not say...."

   *  Metta's Reflections
          -  Soft Eyes
          -  No Rules

   *  Reader Resources
          - _What is Enlightenment?_
          -  Center for Traditional Wisdom
          -  Spiritual Wisdom and Mental Health
          -  International Association of Spiritual Psychiatry

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           Welcome to the first issue of the new 
              Awakening into Awareness ezine!  

I appreciate your interest, and will welcome your reflections
as we begin exploring the nature of Reality and the experience
of Realization together.        

For those of you who have not yet visited the Awakening into 
Awareness web page, and who are not familiar with the advent
of this web page and ezine, a brief bit of background 
information may be helpful:
     In February of 1997 I had an extraordinary experience
     of spontaneous "awakening" or "clear seeing" which
     arrived suddenly and completely without warning.  This 
     "epiphany" is described in greater depth at: 

The Awakening into Awareness web page and ezine have 
emerged as a result this remarkable realization. 

It is my sincere hope that this ezine will now nourish
your own interest in experiences of "awakening," and 
that it may serve us all:
    * as a forum for continuing conversation, and
    * as a catalyst for our on-going exploration of the 
      nature of Reality and the experience of Realization.

With deep appreciation,
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"So Who Are You?"                               by Ken Wilber
The witnessing of awareness can persist through waking, 
dreaming and deep sleep. The Witness is fully available in any 
state, including your own present state of awareness right now.
So I'm going to talk you into this state, or try to, using what
are known in Buddhism as "pointing out instructions." I am not
going to try to get you into a different state of consciousness,
or an altered state of consciousness, or a non-ordinary state. 
I am going to simply point out something that is already 
occurring in your own present, ordinary, natural state.  

So let's start by just being aware of the world around us. 
Look out there at the sky, and just relax your mind; let your
mind and the sky mingle. Notice the clouds floating by. Notice
that this takes no effort on your part. Your present awareness,
in which these clouds are floating, is very simple, very easy, 
effortless, spontaneous. You simply notice that there is an 
effortless awareness of the clouds. The same is true of those 
trees, and those birds, and those rocks. You simply and 
effortlessly witness them.  

Look now at the sensations in your own body. You can be aware
of whatever bodily feelings are present -- perhaps pressure 
where you are sitting, perhaps warmth in your tummy, maybe 
tightness in your neck. But even if these feelings are tight
and tense, you can easily be aware of them. These feelings 
arise in your present awareness, and that awareness is very 
simple, easy, effortless, spontaneous. You simply and 
effortlessly witness them.  

Look at the thoughts arising in your mind. You might notice
various images, symbols, concepts, desires, hopes and fears,
all spontaneously arising in your awareness. They arise, stay 
a bit, and pass. These thoughts and feelings arise in your
present awareness, and that awareness is very simple, 
effortless, spontaneous. You simply and effortlessly witness

So notice: you can see the clouds float by because you are
not those clouds-you are the witness of those clouds. You can 
feel bodily feelings because you are not those feelings -- 
you are the witness of those feelings. You can see thoughts
float by because you are not those thoughts -- you are the
witness of those thoughts. Spontaneously and naturally, these
things all arise, on their own, in your present, effortless 

So who are you? You are not objects out there, you are not 
feelings, you are not thoughts -- you are effortlessly aware
of all those, so you are not those. Who or what are you?  

Say it this way to yourself: I have feelings, but I am not
those feelings. Who am I? I have thoughts, but I am not those
thoughts. Who am I? I have desires, but I am not those desires.
Who am I?  

So you push back into the source of your own awareness. 
You push back into the Witness, and you rest in the Witness. 
I am not objects, not feelings, not desires, not thoughts.  

But then people usually make a big mistake. They think that 
if they rest in the Witness, they are going to see something
or feel something -- something really neat and special. But
you won't see anything. If you see something, that is just 
another object -- another feeling, another thought, another
sensation, another image. But those are all objects; those 
are what you are not.  

No, as you rest in the Witness -- realizing, I am not objects, 
I am not feelings, I am not thoughts -- all you will notice is 
a sense of freedom, a sense of liberation, a sense of release --
release from the terrible constriction of identifying with 
these puny little finite objects, your little body and little 
mind and little ego, all of which are objects that can be seen, 
and thus are not the true Seer, the real Self, the pure Witness, 
which is what you really are.  

So you won't see anything in particular. Whatever is arising is
fine. Clouds float by in the sky, feelings float by in the body,
thoughts float by in the mind -- and you can effortlessly 
witness all of them. They all spontaneously arise in your own 
present, easy, effortless awareness. And this witnessing 
awareness is not itself anything specific you can see. It is 
just a vast, background sense of freedom -- or pure emptiness -- 
and in that pure emptiness, which you are, the entire manifest 
world arises.  You are that freedom, openness, emptiness -- and
not any itty bitty thing that arises in it.  

Resting in that empty, free, easy, effortless witnessing, notice
that the clouds are arising in the vast space of your awareness. 
The clouds are arising within you -- so much so, you can taste 
the clouds, you are one with the clouds. It is as if they are
on this side of your skin, they are so close. The sky and your 
awareness have become one, and all things in the sky are 
floating effortlessly through your own awareness. You can kiss 
the sun, swallow the mountain, they are that close. Zen says 
"Swallow the Pacific Ocean in a single gulp," and that's the 
easiest thing in the world, when inside and outside are no 
longer two, when subject and object are nondual, when the 
looker and looked at are One Taste.  You see?  
                *     *     *     *     *

 From ONE TASTE by Ken Wilber  1998.  Reprinted by arrangement
 with Shambhala Publications, Inc., Boston.  

 This article will also be available soon on the Ken Wilber 
 web site at


Wisdom and Insights  
Richard Moss
Richard Moss' work has been extremely influential in my
exploration of the experience of Awakening.  I highly 
recommend his most recent book,
        _The Second Miracle: Intimacy, Spirituality, 
         and Conscious Relationships_.  
For those who are interested, his previous book,
        _The Black Butterfly_ 
...describes his own experience of spontaneous Realization.

        "It is time that we begin to honor this dimension
         and stop apologizing because we can't prove its 
         value or adequately find a way to express it."  
                           _The Black Butterfly_, p. 6.

        "...reaching up into a higher state is one half of
         the process; the other half is bringing the higher
         energy back.  Thus, an important mastery is to begin
         to learn to speak right out of the immediacy of these
         higher states."
                           _The Black Butterfly_, p. 111


A. H. Almaas
The following explanation from A. H. Almaas helps to clarify
the distinction he sees between the rising of Kundalini energy
and the descent of luminescent Essence.

        "...Kundalini is an aspect of essence.  This is true,
        but in a very specific way -- in the sense that 
        Kundalini is a true energy, the energy of essence.  
        However, Kundalini is usually not seen [or recognized]
        as an aspect of essence because it is energy.  
        Essence, in the strict sense of the word, is our
        being. It is the very substance of existence.  
        Essential aspects exist on the being level and not
        on the energy level.

        (Kundalini is usually known as the ascending force,
        distinguishing it from the descending force.  The 
        descending force through which people like Aurobindo
        attained their realization, is nothing but essence
                          _The Elixir of Enlightenment_ 
                           A. H. Almaas, p. 40


Ngakpa Chogyam
The Realization of the "Open Secret" is based upon a 
profound recognition that Reality, exactly as it manifests 
within our ordinary Awareness in the present moment, is 
none other than THAT which we have been seeking. It is a 
realization that Enlightenment is not separate from or
other than THIS!

        "Good and evil as totally separate fields of energy 
         do not exist. This means that *every* state of mind 
         is open to liberation -- no one is too good or too 
         bad.  Every moment is a possibility, every negative 
         state of mind has something of the quality of an 
         aspect of our naturally liberated state.  Every 
         thought, every feeling, every sensation or action
         *is* enlightenment -- but we do not realise it.  
         When we drink a glass of wine, eat a piece of cheese,
         wash the dishes, cook food, make love, go shopping or
         hit our thumb with a hammer, enlightenment *is there*
         -- we are never separated from it.  There is no need 
         at all to look for enlightenment in any other place 
         than where we are.  It is there unrecognized in the 
         moment Now."
                          _Rainbow of Liberated Energy_
                           by Ngakpa Chogyam, p.7


Garab Dorje, the first Dzogchen Master
Directly discover your state.
Don't remain in doubt.
Gain confidence in self-liberation.

                          _Dzogchen: The Self-Perfected State_
                           by Chogyal Namkhai Norbu, p. 130


Brian Swimme
In _The Universe is a Green Dragon_, Brian Swimme describes
the fundamental "allurement" inherent within the universe
-- the absolute, irresistible power of attraction that draws 
all manifest things together.  It shows up as the gravity 
between stars, as the passion between lovers, as the love of 
a parent for a child....

In this sense, "allurement" is the profound and compelling
Desire that gives birth to the universe within the present
moment.  And, it is the deepest of all energies moving within
and motivating each of us throughout our daily lives:
         "You do not know what you can do, or who you are 
          in your fullest significance, or what powers are 
          hiding within you.  All exists in the emptiness 
          of your potentiality, a realm that cannot be seen
          or tasted or touched.  How will you bring these 
          powers forth?  How will you awaken your creativity?
          By responding to the allurements that beckon to you,
          by following your passions and interests.  Alluring
          activity draws you into being, just as it drew the
          star into being.  Our life and powers come forth
          through our response to allurement."    (p. 51)


The following exchange is an expanded excerpt from recent
correspondence with an AIA reader, who had a remarkable 
experience of awakening into a Recognition of "no self" 
several years ago.  (Thanks, E.T., for all the delightful
letters you've shared!)

I congratulate you on your "spiritual" evolutionary 
Thanks!  Actually, the epiphany I experienced felt like 
pure, unadulterated Grace, and truthfully, there was 
*nothing* I did, either to warrant congratulations, or to
"earn" or "deserve" this incredible experience of Recognition.
It simply arrived spontaneously, and without warning.

Also, I'm not sure just how "evolutionary" the experience
actually was. I know there's lots of talk these days about 
"spiritual evolution," but there was nothing inherent 
within my epiphany that suggested any sort of 
"progressive" development, above and beyond the natural
unfolding of manifest things within the present moment.
I just can't presume to say on this point, simply because
an awareness of "spiritual evolution" is not a part of my
own immediate experience.....

You write that "I need do nothing" (as is quoted in several
other sources, including "A Course In Miracles"), yet I am 
invited to pursue intuitive development into the ultimate 
reality via workshops, etc. This is a contradiction that is 
rather easily explained when considering the mind/body/spirit
combo, but a contradiction, nonetheless, that invites
Indeed!  An apparent contradiction may arise here for the
logical, rational mind, but "not doing" really is just 
"not blocking" what already is -- *including* your own 
desire to pursue spiritual/intuitive development!

Alan Watts captured the essence of this beautifully in his
essay "Sitting Quietly, Doing Nothing:" 
     "The simplest cure is to feel free to block [i.e., react], 
      so that one does not block at blocking.  When one feels 
      free to block, the blocking automatically eliminates 
      itself [and then action -- or nonaction -- arises
      spontaneously]....The principle here is, of course, the 
      same as getting out of the contradiction of 'trying to 
      be spontaneous' through accepting the 'trying' as 
      'spontaneous' [in and of itself]...."
                                  _The Way of Zen_, 
                                   pp. 150-151

I am also reminded of the "guru/disciple" story about the 
student who approached the master with excitement, relating 
the "revelations" he had experienced.  The guru replied, 
quietly,  "Never mind.  Just get back to your meditation, 
and they will go away."
Yes.  This is a wonderful story, isn't it?!
Truthfully, all along I've wanted to avoid an inordinate
fascination with the "fireworks" of my own epiphany.  At 
the same time, though, I cannot ignore the absolutely 
tremendous impact this "event" has had in my life.  

So far I've made my peace with this, and with my desire
to continue to share this experience with others, by
simply recognizing that:
     * At the very least, the epiphany can serve as a 
       starting point for conversations, such as the one 
       we are now having...conversations that may gradually
       begin to open us to the larger Reality in which we 
       find ourselves.
     * A full and whole-hearted acceptance of such 
       "revelations" is essential for recognizing the 
       larger Reality that is inherent within both our
       ordinary and non-ordinary experience.


Also apropos is the story of Thomas Aquinas (of Summa Theologica 
fame) who said -- circa 12th century -- "Such things have been 
revealed to me that I shall write no more."
Indeed!  In my own case, I was intrigued to discover that even
the Buddha himself is reputedly said to have considered *not* 
teaching, but "the gods" implored him to reconsider, and after
40 days of contemplation in the forest, he said, "O.K." 
(Loosely translated, of course.)

I guess I have simply accepted the presence of this desire to 
write as one of the emergent "after-effects" of the epiphany, 
and I simply "decided" that I will continue writing and sharing 
this with others as long as there is an interest and a desire 
to do so. Then, when this desire fades, I'll just naturally


Somebody wrote or said: "Those who know don't speak or write;  
those who speak or write don't know." Now I wonder who 
wrote/spoke that!
My sentiments exactly! ;~)
Actually, it was Lao Tsu, the Chinese Taoist sage who said:
          "Those who say do not know.
           Those who know do not say."

Truthfully, I've thought about this one a lot, puzzled over it, 
and still do.  (The mind still loves to run its traps, doesn't

I've looked at this several ways:
On the one hand, I agree that if any of us attempts to "say" 
with any degree of finality and definitiveness what "IT" is 
(The Tao, Reality, Truth, God, etc.), the limits of language
and our forms of verbal expression will not be adequate to 
fully contain or convey the Essence or extent of whatever 
"IT" is.

Then there is, of course, the sense in which I think you've 
shared this quotation, that those who really "Know" are wise
enough not to even engage in saying, "I know...."  

I suspect there is wisdom and truth in both of these 
interpretations of Lao Tsu's words. At the same time,
though, my simple conclusion has been if words were
good enough for Lao Tsu, they'll be good enough for me
-- at least for the time being!  

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Metta's Reflections
Soft Eyes
Through soft eyes I see the world,
Perceiving, not judging,
Accepting, embracing the gift of the moment.

Beyond THIS,
there is nothing
to do or achieve.

The river flows to the sea,
Timeless, Immortal, Infinite.
Oh, the delight of such boundless joy!


No Rules 
To have no rules at all.
To be present with your genuine personality, and
to have no technique, no formula to superimpose -- nothing.
Permit the deepest part of who you are to take the lead!

Take time to understand your dreams and intuitions,
instead of flippantly dismissing them.
Teach one another, through your own actions, to trust yourselves,
and to trust the marvel of this gradual, unfolding process....

         Adapted from a quotation by Marie Louise von Franz
         in an interview for _Psychological Perspectives_


Reader Resources      
_What is Enlightenment?_                  Tel: 800-376-3210                Tel: 413-637-6040
E-mail:                    Fax: 413-637-6015

P.O. Box 2360
Lenox, MA 01240
Readers who are interested in exploring more about the nature
of Enlightenment may be interested in the current Fall/Winter
issue of _What is Enlightenment?_, a bi-annual publication 
about experiences of awakening. I found this particular issue
to be especially intriguing. It was, coincidentally, entitled:
        "What IS Enlightenment?  
         Does ANYBODY really know what they're TALKING about?"  

This series of 6 interviews with various "realized"/"awakened"
individuals attempts to address the apparent contradictions
and paradoxes in various interpretations and "explanations" 
of Enlightenment (including Advaitan, Buddhist, etc.), and it
makes for some *very* thought-provoking and enticing reading....


The following three affiliate organizations offer a tremendous 
wealth of wisdom and insight (including numerous articles) 
related to Awakening and the development of mature mental 
health. I extend my thanks, in particular, to Jean-Marc Mantel
for his invaluable networking support, and to Penny Fenner 
for her thoughtful correspondence.

Center for Timeless Wisdom

Penny and Peter Fenner 
In the United States:
  555 Bryant Street, #302         Tel: 415-488 4988         
  Palo Alto CA 94301  USA         Fax: 415-488-9819
In Australia:
  23a Britten St.,                Tel: 011 613 9885 0119
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  Victoria  3146, Australia

Spiritual Wisdom and Mental Health

5150 Fair Oaks Blvd. #101-130     Tel: 916-485-1049
Carmichael, CA 95608  USA         Fax: 916-481-5486

International Association of Spiritual Psychology

Jean-Marc Mantel, M.D.            Tel: +972-4-8262843
Sweden St. 30, Haifa 34980        Fax: +972-4-8251395



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